A year ago I lost a close friend. A man that I admired as a husband, father, and a pastor. The other day I was going through my text messages and found that I still had not deleted my messages from him. I don’t know if this is weird or sad. I am really not sure how to look at it. A part of me wants to keep the messages to remind me and encourage me how to be a better husband, worship leader, and man in general. I found myself getting emotional about how much I miss hanging out with him and learning from him. He taught me more about being a worship leader than anyone I have ever known. He was humble and he was all about bringing glory to Jesus. I pray that I can become half the man that Andrew Pray was.
One year later and so much has changed. My perspective on life has changed. My perspective on worship has changed. My perspective on ministry in general has changed. I have wrestled with my calling more in the last 12 months than ever before. God has been faithful time after time and I am so grateful.
The lessons that I have learned from Andrew have outlived him. I have learned things a year from his passing that I didn’t know he was teaching me. That might seem strange, but it’s true nonetheless. Communication, preparation, leadership, love, anticipation, energy, humility, and so much more.
For now I will keep the messages. They help me to see how far I have come and help me to continue to grow in my walk with Jesus. It really is amazing how quickly this year has come and gone when I really think about it. Life is short for all of us– weather we live to be 30 or 100. When we look back 5 or 10 years, they all seem like they flew by. “Behold, you have made my days a few handbreadths, and my lifetime is as nothing before you. Surely all mankind stands as a mere breath!” (Psalm 39:5)
So this holiday season I will be remembering a friend and I will be thanking God for allowing me the opportunity to serve along side him and glean wisdom from him.