This weekend will be the first Sunday where I have zero responsibility in a church service in over 7 years! It is a very weird feeling to say the least. I have caught myself throughout this week checking Planning Center to listen to songs I need to learn for this week and realizing I don’t have any…
Courtney and I are really looking forward to getting up together, eating breakfast together, and going to church together. We have not done this since we’ve been married… unless we were on vacation. Even still I hardly slept on Saturday nights because I would be thinking through all the transitions of the church service I had planned and trying to make sure I didn’t forget anything. I constantly would text the person filling in for me while I was gone and all the musicians to be sure everything went off well. It is really amazing how stressful being a worship pastor is/was.
I am still playing here and there in the coming months at a couple different locations, but for the most part I am taking a much needed break. The best part about where I am leading in the coming weeks is that all I do is show up..(and rehearse of course!) someone else is putting the sets together and worrying about all that stuff (thanks Andrew and Tim)! I can focus solely on my heart and mind being right and focused on Jesus and His glory.
I have also found myself really wanting to play my guitar like crazy this week, but unfortunately by the time I get home I just want to chill on the couch with our pup. This time is helping me realize how much I love playing music and how much I took that for granted. I traveled so much last year with my band and I was so focused on getting the business side straightened out all the time that I lost focus of the reason behind the music. It was easy too fall back into once we hit the first note, but it was all the in-between times that got to me. I am looking forward to not having to rely on playing every Wednesday and Sunday to make a living for a while. I am looking forward to missing it.
I am so thankful for having the opportunity to plug in at local churches in the coming months. I am also thankful to have a new church home where it doesn’t matter if I never played guitar or sang a note. It takes a weight off that you wouldn’t believe. I am thankful for the years I have had on church staffs, but at the same time I am looking forward to not knowing all the “behind the scenes” details so that I can always so “I don’t know.” I haven’t been able to say that since I was 16!
Hope everyone has a good weekend… more posts coming next week (I am trying to actually be consistent with my “blogging”)